A wise friend of mine once told me that when you lose someone close to you, you eventually heal but will never be the same because "it's kind of like when a meteor crashes into Earth. It leaves a giant hole, and pretty new grass grows over it, showing you where it hit."
Well, I'm ready to let the pretty grass grow.
The past month has been emotionally exhausting. I lost interest in anything and everything. I had severe mood swings; laughing one moment and balling my eyes out the next. I also lost my sense of humor, flipping out on friends who made cheeky remarks towards me. You would think I was suffering from severe PMS. I could feel myself slipping into a deep depression. I knew it was time for me to snap out of it when I was slumped on my bed, watching Law & Order: SVU, and a commercial for Paxil, an anti-depression drug, came on. I identified with a lot of the symptoms listed in the ad. Needless to say, getting myself out of this sad hole will be very hard.
I just know that it is time I move on with my life. I need to. Or else, all my hard work these past 4 years at school would have been for nothing. Scarlett will forever be a part of me *cough*getting a tattoo*cough* (tell my parents, you die) and I know she would want to see me rise to my full potential, while living my life to fullest.
I just know that it is time I move on with my life. I need to. Or else, all my hard work these past 4 years at school would have been for nothing. Scarlett will forever be a part of me *cough*getting a tattoo*cough* (tell my parents, you die) and I know she would want to see me rise to my full potential, while living my life to fullest.
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